9:52 AM You know I always told myself, never take/use other people's money if you can help it. Or never allow people to do you a big favour if you can help it. Because sometimes, after the help is given, it's like they own your ass, or you owe them your life. Suddenly, some choices you make in your life have to accomodate them. Even if they don't think so at the moment, or they say it's okay, it never is. Personally, obligation will set in for me. And even if I try to pull it off, sooner or later, your 'friends' will start talking shit behind your back.
Yes, I admit I'm proud. Sometimes cocky, but even if I am I try to make it subtle. But being proud also means I am aware of other proud people. ESPECIALLY those who are super cocky and blow their cockiness in your face. And I HATE it. At times, they make you feel dependant on them, like as if you can't live without them. Well, I have two words for you guys. Fuck Off. Yes, I am also aware that my pride will not do me good at times, but I also know that it will come in handy on and off. I do not like to be looked down upon, or being made to feel dependant. So don't push my wrong buttons. Because your vulnerability will be your wrong buttons, and I swear I will push them if you make me.
So now, I'm stuck. I mean seriously, what choice do I have? Just do what they say and get on with it. And in about a weeks time, I will disappear. Because I'm just not bothered anymore. Just give everything back to everyone, and that's it. Finito.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
